I’m often asked “How do you do it?” when someone hears I have had 6 boys. The answer is “I don’t.” Our life is not some crazy schedule of sports and extracurricular activities, that I’m jumping around to every night. In fact, no one is involved in sports or anything. If I’m totally honest, the boys spend entirely too much time playing Minecraft, ROBLOX, and the VR. They take turns and build stuff together, but it eats me alive inside. The mom guilt is real because I want to do better, but I don’t. It’s like that way with meals too. I know about healthy foods and yet we cook Mac n cheese and frozen pizzas. My youngest has eczema but I can’t get him off the milk. Just got him off the bottle about a month ago. He used toddler formula until almost 2 because I couldn’t get him to eat three square meals a day. Matthew is in feeding therapy cause his cerebral Palsey has caused delays, so he mainly eats Nature Bake Brownie Bars and veggies straws. We rejoice every day that he kisses and licks a new food he’s offered at dinner.
Our life is crazy and hectic, but not for the reasons people think. See, I struggle with severe depression and anxiety. I’m a functionally depressed person though. My doctor says I have Dystimia – chronic and persistent depression that meds wouldn’t work on. I’m ok with that, because I prefer natural methods. I was diagnosed with PTSD 9 years ago after finding my son Joshua, dead. We went through 2 years of therapy, individual and as a couple. I think it helped for many years. But something about the last few years, has brought it all back to the surface. Or maybe I was really good at stuffing it over the years. I’m not sure. I decided recently that I needed to start talking about it. I need to break free from the isolation. I’m told I should write a book too so this blog will be the start of that I’m sure. Happy Sunday! I’ll be back later!
Outnumbered Six to One 