An acquaintance shared some screenshot memes yesterday of people’s Twitter posts. We all know what that’s like. Maybe something funny or political. However, this time, it gripped me with complete focus, and it was neither.
I cannot begin to describe the relief this meme brought me! And you know what happened next? Deep dive into all things ADHD! Duh!
I haven’t come up from the deep dive yet. Not sure when I will. In 24 hours, more stuff has made more sense than in 37 years!
I haven’t finished something years. Grade school was shuffled depending on what I wanted. Didn’t stay a full year in any school after 4th grade. Risky behavior when I was a teen. Pregnant at 17. Impulsive, married at 20, divorced at 24.
Even the silly stuff like needing to rearrange my house every 6 months. New furniture ever few years. Selling a home because I’m tired of the same four walls.
Impulsivity! Rumination! Overwhelm! Burnout! All or nothing! Black and white thinking! Perfectionism resulting in inability to act! Check. Check. Check!!!! 1,000x check! So much clarity. So much understanding! I’m not broken! There isn’t something wrong with me! I’m not alone! Found the IG accounts, podcasts, and Youtube Chanel’s that fully back this up, and I cannot wait to share with my therapist on Friday!
What a day! What a life changing moment! Maybe I will be able to continue homeschooling my children without the burnout and pressure! Maybe we won’t sell it all and buy an RV to travel. Maybe I won’t end up in divorce again. Maybe, just maybe, I’ll be able to stick with a job longer than before!
Outnumbered Six to One 