Life has been beyond crazy these last few months. A few of the highlights would be the upcoming promotion we've received. We're going to become grandparents. Yes, I know. It's absolutely mind-blowing that I'm old enough to have a grand baby - but I am pushing 40 and my oldest is almost 20. To make … Continue reading So What’s New With Me?
An acquaintance shared some screenshot memes yesterday of people’s Twitter posts. We all know what that’s like. Maybe something funny or political. However, this time, it gripped me with complete focus, and it was neither. My “Ahhhh!!” Moment I cannot begin to describe the relief this meme brought me! And you know what happened next? … Continue reading It’s Starting to Make Sense!
I will say I’m glad to know I still have feelings because I have cried no less than 5 times today. It’s Mother’s Day, for Pete sake, and they still manage to make me cry. The last 6 weeks I have wondered if the psilocybin treatment knocked me offline entirely when it came to feelings. … Continue reading Mother’s Day 2022
It was our tag line for over a decade, “I just need to get you to 18.” “If we can just get you to 18, you’ll be fine.” Now here we are. It doesn’t look how I thought it would, but today is the day. It’s finally happened! Happy 18th Birthday, Mia! You are the … Continue reading Happy 18th Birthday Sweetheart, but Farewell
I’m not sure my mind has ever been this clear. I have never been this full of energy, life, the gumption to do anything! I wake up everyday looking forward to who knows what, and that is so exciting to me. But....I can’t even begin to put into word my feelings. The emotions that come … Continue reading Oh The Irony LOL
We’re a week into my husband having a new job. He’s been unemployed for 5.5 months. Intentionally for the first 4 months as he studied for tax school. He decided he didn’t want a desk job in the end, so after a month of DoorDash, he got a delivery driver job for a large aerospace … Continue reading Things Changed. Now what?
Covid hit our house, so the last few weeks have been....interesting. I’d say we’re about 98% recovered. The mental piece is something people don’t talk about. It’s the remaining 2% around here. In full transparency, I thought I was going to die a few weeks ago. Never in my life had I experienced high BP, … Continue reading It’s Been a Few Weeks Cause of Covid
Why don’t I share openly about grief with my family? I feel like it’s something I’m doing in secret. The podcast I listen to only in my car alone, the social media comments/posts I do. It feels shameful or dark. Like I don’t want to drag anyone down with me, so distance is better. Just … Continue reading Grief “Share” or Lack There Of
Recently I have been really pushing into my grief. When a negative shame script starts creeping into my mind, I’m able to pause the thought and funnel it through the lens of grieving. “What am I grieving over?” When I get angry at myself for not being able to take the kids outside when they … Continue reading Stumbling Through Grief
“Healing doesn’t happen in the darkness.” That’s what I told my pastor today in a lengthy email after church. I wrote out many ways in which PTSD stops me from living. I felt the need to share it with him. Keeping it to myself doesn’t help. We’re a few days into 2022, and I’m already … Continue reading Healing Doesn’t Happen in the Darkness
Outnumbered Six to One 