I’m a daily reader in the YouVersion Bible app. I enjoy their small Bible reading plans, I can tailor it to an emotion I need help processing through. This morning I decided to search for “PTSD”, and nothing came up outside the lens of veterans in the military. I was very bummed about it. I … Continue reading My Daily Devotional and a Christian Comedian
Tag: depression
The Raw Truth – Part Two, Of Many
The diagnosis of PTSD surprised me last Wednesday. I just assumed since I was discharged from therapy 7 years ago, it was dealt with. I did two years of intensive CBT along side couples therapy, after Josh died. My flashbacks are no longer controlling me. I can think about that morning myself, they no longer … Continue reading The Raw Truth – Part Two, Of Many
The Raw Truth – Part One, of many
My best friend growing up, was severely abusive to me mentally. She constantly told me all the ways in which I sucked at whatever it was I was doing. I sucked at softball, picked out ugly clothes, I did my make up wrong, I’m dating a douche bag, etc. The nickname given to me around … Continue reading The Raw Truth – Part One, of many
A Letter to Leah
You text and called me tonight. It doesn’t happen too often. You asked me for a resource I didn’t know of, and shared your current need with me. I share that same need, but I’d always dreamed of it having you in it too. I don’t wish I could take back the last 9 years … Continue reading A Letter to Leah
Desperation Knows No Bounds
A few days ago, I got this wild idea! Maybe I should apply to local private schools so my kids can attend - deeply discounted, or for free. I’d even volunteer full time at their school, just so they could attend. I’m not sure we’d ever be able to afford sending all 3 boys to … Continue reading Desperation Knows No Bounds
“Everyday Feels The Same”
He said that. He actually said that! My 8 year old actually said those words to me last night. “Everyday feels the same.” He was asking a few questions and trying to figure out when the end of the year was, when Halloween was. I was punched in the gut by those 4 words. I … Continue reading “Everyday Feels The Same”
Pouring From an Empty Cup
When Zach was born, I had this feeling that I even struggle to describe today. It was this immense desire to never miss a moment with him. I wanted to see everything he did and never miss a moment of his life. I will never get to experience anything with Joshua. As the years have … Continue reading Pouring From an Empty Cup
“Pedro, you suck. That’s all.“
I gotta get this off my chest. Pull up a chair and a glass of wine, cause I have got some stories to share!! A few nights ago, a co-worker text me. 15 minutes after I replied to his text, I got another text from an unknown number. The text told me to go buy … Continue reading “Pedro, you suck. That’s all.“
Walk A Mile in My Shoes
This morning was too chilly for the flip flops, so I was forced back into socks and shoes. Haven’t had to wear them in months, but Oregon’s weather is only good for a short time. And that time is quickly dwindling. I am not the flip flop all year round girl. I don’t know how … Continue reading Walk A Mile in My Shoes
“Not Right Now, Son.”
If I had a nickel for every time I responded with “Not right now, son”, I’d be loaded! I know kids barely have a sense of time. They often ask at the worst possible times to do just about anything. The one that gets me in the gut every single time, is when it’s my … Continue reading “Not Right Now, Son.”
Outnumbered Six to One 