An acquaintance shared some screenshot memes yesterday of people’s Twitter posts. We all know what that’s like. Maybe something funny or political. However, this time, it gripped me with complete focus, and it was neither. My “Ahhhh!!” Moment I cannot begin to describe the relief this meme brought me! And you know what happened next? … Continue reading It’s Starting to Make Sense!
Tag: faith
Happy 10th Birthday, Joshua.
You’d be 10 now. I cannot believe how the time has flied this last decade. It feels so surreal that I’ve made it to this point. Today I am happy with where I’m going. This year felt healing for once. We brought you off the shelf and made a little display area for you to … Continue reading Happy 10th Birthday, Joshua.
Mother’s Day 2022
I will say I’m glad to know I still have feelings because I have cried no less than 5 times today. It’s Mother’s Day, for Pete sake, and they still manage to make me cry. The last 6 weeks I have wondered if the psilocybin treatment knocked me offline entirely when it came to feelings. … Continue reading Mother’s Day 2022
Oh The Irony LOL
I’m not sure my mind has ever been this clear. I have never been this full of energy, life, the gumption to do anything! I wake up everyday looking forward to who knows what, and that is so exciting to me. But....I can’t even begin to put into word my feelings. The emotions that come … Continue reading Oh The Irony LOL
Things Changed. Now what?
We’re a week into my husband having a new job. He’s been unemployed for 5.5 months. Intentionally for the first 4 months as he studied for tax school. He decided he didn’t want a desk job in the end, so after a month of DoorDash, he got a delivery driver job for a large aerospace … Continue reading Things Changed. Now what?
It’s Been a Few Weeks Cause of Covid
Covid hit our house, so the last few weeks have been....interesting. I’d say we’re about 98% recovered. The mental piece is something people don’t talk about. It’s the remaining 2% around here. In full transparency, I thought I was going to die a few weeks ago. Never in my life had I experienced high BP, … Continue reading It’s Been a Few Weeks Cause of Covid
Little Crayons, Big Gain
I can’t begin to describe how a silly pile of crayons changed my perspective this week. Mom guilt eating me alive is that I don’t have the energy to play with my kids most days. We have a plethora of arts and crafts, but I’ve always kept them in a cupboard. They rarely come out, … Continue reading Little Crayons, Big Gain
You Know What? I’m Absolutely Bitter!!!
I started listening to a new podcast series. A mama who also found her son dead like me. And it was over 13 years ago, so she has time and distance on her side as well. I’m really getting into the episodes. It’s helping with the messiness of grief, and trust me, there is a … Continue reading You Know What? I’m Absolutely Bitter!!!
Grief “Share” or Lack There Of
Why don’t I share openly about grief with my family? I feel like it’s something I’m doing in secret. The podcast I listen to only in my car alone, the social media comments/posts I do. It feels shameful or dark. Like I don’t want to drag anyone down with me, so distance is better. Just … Continue reading Grief “Share” or Lack There Of
Stumbling Through Grief
Recently I have been really pushing into my grief. When a negative shame script starts creeping into my mind, I’m able to pause the thought and funnel it through the lens of grieving. “What am I grieving over?” When I get angry at myself for not being able to take the kids outside when they … Continue reading Stumbling Through Grief
Outnumbered Six to One 