Life has been beyond crazy these last few months. A few of the highlights would be the upcoming promotion we've received. We're going to become grandparents. Yes, I know. It's absolutely mind-blowing that I'm old enough to have a grand baby - but I am pushing 40 and my oldest is almost 20. To make … Continue reading So What’s New With Me?
You’d be 10 now. I cannot believe how the time has flied this last decade. It feels so surreal that I’ve made it to this point. Today I am happy with where I’m going. This year felt healing for once. We brought you off the shelf and made a little display area for you to … Continue reading Happy 10th Birthday, Joshua.
I’m not sure my mind has ever been this clear. I have never been this full of energy, life, the gumption to do anything! I wake up everyday looking forward to who knows what, and that is so exciting to me. But....I can’t even begin to put into word my feelings. The emotions that come … Continue reading Oh The Irony LOL
We’re a week into my husband having a new job. He’s been unemployed for 5.5 months. Intentionally for the first 4 months as he studied for tax school. He decided he didn’t want a desk job in the end, so after a month of DoorDash, he got a delivery driver job for a large aerospace … Continue reading Things Changed. Now what?
Covid hit our house, so the last few weeks have been....interesting. I’d say we’re about 98% recovered. The mental piece is something people don’t talk about. It’s the remaining 2% around here. In full transparency, I thought I was going to die a few weeks ago. Never in my life had I experienced high BP, … Continue reading It’s Been a Few Weeks Cause of Covid
I started listening to a new podcast series. A mama who also found her son dead like me. And it was over 13 years ago, so she has time and distance on her side as well. I’m really getting into the episodes. It’s helping with the messiness of grief, and trust me, there is a … Continue reading You Know What? I’m Absolutely Bitter!!!
Why don’t I share openly about grief with my family? I feel like it’s something I’m doing in secret. The podcast I listen to only in my car alone, the social media comments/posts I do. It feels shameful or dark. Like I don’t want to drag anyone down with me, so distance is better. Just … Continue reading Grief “Share” or Lack There Of
Recently I have been really pushing into my grief. When a negative shame script starts creeping into my mind, I’m able to pause the thought and funnel it through the lens of grieving. “What am I grieving over?” When I get angry at myself for not being able to take the kids outside when they … Continue reading Stumbling Through Grief
Another great chat with my hubby this evening. We both agree moving doesn’t solve the issues we’re dealing with. We know they’ll just follow us wherever we go. Neither of us had ever dreamed about moving out of state. With that said, there are a very select few reasons we would actually try and move. … Continue reading Giving It My All….Again
Hubby and I have been deep in conversation surrounding my re-diagnosis of PTSD from a few weeks ago. In true fashion of self, I have been doing a deep dive into learning about it, coping with it, and learning how to heal from it. If I am anything, I am a fighter. I may feel … Continue reading My Mental Swings and His Whiplash
Outnumbered Six to One 