Every so often, usually a few times a year, I get this exploding urge inside my chest to pack up the whole family and move to Texas. That urge is upon me again. In times past, I will begin intensely researching towns, schools, house prices, jobs. And by whole family, I mean I’ve talked to … Continue reading I’m going nuts, Texas!
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The Raw Truth – Part Three, of many
I spend time wondering if my ability to irrationally panic inside my brain, would be considered a “flashback” or if it’s just being irrational. Is it considered “expected”, given what I’ve been through? Will it ever get better? Cause it’d definitely gotten worse over the years. Here me out.... I have this unique super power … Continue reading The Raw Truth – Part Three, of many
The Raw Truth – Part One, of many
My best friend growing up, was severely abusive to me mentally. She constantly told me all the ways in which I sucked at whatever it was I was doing. I sucked at softball, picked out ugly clothes, I did my make up wrong, I’m dating a douche bag, etc. The nickname given to me around … Continue reading The Raw Truth – Part One, of many
A Letter to Leah
You text and called me tonight. It doesn’t happen too often. You asked me for a resource I didn’t know of, and shared your current need with me. I share that same need, but I’d always dreamed of it having you in it too. I don’t wish I could take back the last 9 years … Continue reading A Letter to Leah
Desperation Knows No Bounds
A few days ago, I got this wild idea! Maybe I should apply to local private schools so my kids can attend - deeply discounted, or for free. I’d even volunteer full time at their school, just so they could attend. I’m not sure we’d ever be able to afford sending all 3 boys to … Continue reading Desperation Knows No Bounds
“Everyday Feels The Same”
He said that. He actually said that! My 8 year old actually said those words to me last night. “Everyday feels the same.” He was asking a few questions and trying to figure out when the end of the year was, when Halloween was. I was punched in the gut by those 4 words. I … Continue reading “Everyday Feels The Same”
Pouring From an Empty Cup
When Zach was born, I had this feeling that I even struggle to describe today. It was this immense desire to never miss a moment with him. I wanted to see everything he did and never miss a moment of his life. I will never get to experience anything with Joshua. As the years have … Continue reading Pouring From an Empty Cup
“Pedro, you suck. That’s all.“
I gotta get this off my chest. Pull up a chair and a glass of wine, cause I have got some stories to share!! A few nights ago, a co-worker text me. 15 minutes after I replied to his text, I got another text from an unknown number. The text told me to go buy … Continue reading “Pedro, you suck. That’s all.“
Nelly – Gone Too Far
No caption necessary. I did exactly that. I have to tell you the story behind this photo. It was once a mural painted on the wall of my old bedroom as a teenager. My mom took this photo around 2002 before she painted over it, about the time I moved out at 17. My nickname … Continue reading Nelly – Gone Too Far
“Not Right Now, Son.”
If I had a nickel for every time I responded with “Not right now, son”, I’d be loaded! I know kids barely have a sense of time. They often ask at the worst possible times to do just about anything. The one that gets me in the gut every single time, is when it’s my … Continue reading “Not Right Now, Son.”
Outnumbered Six to One 